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Me and the Backup Camera
Jul. 25th, 2024 10:06 pmWe bought our used Ford Escape hybrid back in October of last year. It’s been a decent vehicle and well used in the last two months with all the family obligations and traveling. It has a backup camera that works just fine, until the heat rises above 100F outside. We didn’t realize it was heat that was making the camera glitch out until it was obvious that when the weather was agreeable, it would work. Well, with record breaking heat this summer, as soon as I back out of the driveway, the camera shows wavey and striking lines, in all shades of colors and eventually just poops out. I am that camera.
I’m not even mad. I just look at it and say, “same" and nod in solidarity. It worked when we were down in La Jolla in the middle of the month. The cooler air and constant overcast weather made the backup camera shine clear as day. I forgot that it even worked until I was backing out of my brother-in-law's Air BnB condo. I had moments of clarity too while I was there enjoying the warm ocean and cool air. One of the best days of the year was on July 11th (I think) when I was swimming in the ocean with my son and my niece and I was helping Lucie bodyboard in the perfect kid size waves. I couldn't catch a wave for myself to save my life, but it was such a joy to set the kid off flying towards the sandy beach. I understand when the Beach Boys sing “Catching a wave and you’re sittin’ on top of the world.”
I’ve been living vicariously through surfers catching waves lately and it’s honestly been great to see (wink-wink).
When we got home from the big family trip to San Diego/La Jolla then to Murrietta to see grandpa, then home, I was spent. The backup camera was back to the jarring stripes and off-color edges. We endured 114-112 heat that has barely let up for the last few weeks. I felt dizzy. Food decomposes so fast that it’s impossible to eat anything fresh. The worst is going in and out of the house into an air-conditioned store, then out into the breath choking heat again. I can’t walk outside or cook without suffering. I have not been well for some time.
We are expecting a break from the heat starting tomorrow night. On Saturday we should have a high of 95 and lows into the 60’s. It wouldn’t be so bad if the nights were cool, but they barely dip into the high 70’s. I hope this break in the heat will stop this constant buzzy feeling that I get when I move too suddenly. My nerves look like my backup camera.
Today I had four fillings removed and replaced. One filling was so bad that there wasn’t enough tooth left to save so they made me a crown. I am now dental royalty. I cried when they ground down the tooth to make way for the crown out of grief and loss. I kept saying over and over in my head, “thank you tooth. Thank you for being there.” It felt like I was being cremated while still alive. Flecks of my tooth were being sucked away as if it was just debris. They ground down to the wires. I am still sore from the procedure.
I’m not even mad. I just look at it and say, “same" and nod in solidarity. It worked when we were down in La Jolla in the middle of the month. The cooler air and constant overcast weather made the backup camera shine clear as day. I forgot that it even worked until I was backing out of my brother-in-law's Air BnB condo. I had moments of clarity too while I was there enjoying the warm ocean and cool air. One of the best days of the year was on July 11th (I think) when I was swimming in the ocean with my son and my niece and I was helping Lucie bodyboard in the perfect kid size waves. I couldn't catch a wave for myself to save my life, but it was such a joy to set the kid off flying towards the sandy beach. I understand when the Beach Boys sing “Catching a wave and you’re sittin’ on top of the world.”
I’ve been living vicariously through surfers catching waves lately and it’s honestly been great to see (wink-wink).
When we got home from the big family trip to San Diego/La Jolla then to Murrietta to see grandpa, then home, I was spent. The backup camera was back to the jarring stripes and off-color edges. We endured 114-112 heat that has barely let up for the last few weeks. I felt dizzy. Food decomposes so fast that it’s impossible to eat anything fresh. The worst is going in and out of the house into an air-conditioned store, then out into the breath choking heat again. I can’t walk outside or cook without suffering. I have not been well for some time.
We are expecting a break from the heat starting tomorrow night. On Saturday we should have a high of 95 and lows into the 60’s. It wouldn’t be so bad if the nights were cool, but they barely dip into the high 70’s. I hope this break in the heat will stop this constant buzzy feeling that I get when I move too suddenly. My nerves look like my backup camera.
Today I had four fillings removed and replaced. One filling was so bad that there wasn’t enough tooth left to save so they made me a crown. I am now dental royalty. I cried when they ground down the tooth to make way for the crown out of grief and loss. I kept saying over and over in my head, “thank you tooth. Thank you for being there.” It felt like I was being cremated while still alive. Flecks of my tooth were being sucked away as if it was just debris. They ground down to the wires. I am still sore from the procedure.
